Well, I haven't written in a while. Probably because I feel like this is the first second I have had to breathe in the past few weeks. Life, or "nursing school", as I know it has taken off and I spend every extra second I have on school. My social life has suffered, but my grades have not. All the glory goes to God. He has truly held my hand and guided me when I thought that no one else was there. My constant prayer through all of this has been, "God, have [YOUR] will in everything that I do. I will praise You for the good and for the bad. But pave my way and show me Your plan." He has done exactly that.
With that being said... this does not mean I have not spent many helpless nights worrying what the outcome of the next day would be, because I have... more times than I wish to admit. I worry about my grades, worry about knowing every single medication or blood count that I need to, worry about missing a homework assignment, worry about being where I'm supposed to be, worry about not eating enough or eating too much, worry about not sleeping enough, worry about having money, worry about spending time with Joe, worry about calling my mama and daddy, worry about spending enough time with Jesus... I worry, worry, worry. Many times when I become overwhelmed the first thing I do is open my bible and it seems almost instantly that I have a peace about me, but lately it has been so hard to find time to just open my bible.
Really, hard to find time to spend with Jesus? Yes. It has been. I will read a quick verse on my phone, read a quick devotion and be done. That is not like me. I am used to spending at least 30 minutes to an hour pouring out to my Savior every single day. So within the past few weeks something has hit me...
God is ALWAYS there. He knows my every need, he knows my every thought. He knows the workload I have and he knows how stressed I am. This is one of those *high-five my face* moments in life. He knows these things, He is going to be here for me, all I have to do is pour out to Him! I have been so worried about spending every free second on homework or studying that I have taken that time away from God. He deserves time in my life. It is my job to trust that if I take time out of my busy schedule to pour out to Him, He will hear me and He will diligently bless me.
So I have spent countless days and nights asking Him to forgive me for not giving Him the time he deserves in my life and tonight, (9/25/2013), he totally blessed my socks off!
When God moves, He really moves. And I cannot praise Him enough.
Joe and I have been so blessed every Sunday morning and Wednesday night after church. We always come out talking about "how that sermon was for us". And most of them have been right on point. But tonight absolutely blew me away. I was a little down going into church because my normal Wednesday night group wasn't going to be there because of homework. So there I was, in this huge sanctuary, all alone. I was praying for God to make it seem like it was just me and Him in the sanctuary so I could have some special time to just pour out and worship Him like crazy. But He had something better in mind. At one point I turned around and saw the sweetest smile I know. My man had come to church and surprised me... wow, love him so much!! The only thing better than me and God worshipping is me, God, and Joe.
Anyways...
Tonight the sermon was from Psalm 139 and it was titled "LIVE the moment".
Basically, what I took from the sermon was...
God knows me.
God knows [everything].
He searches me every single day.
"Such knowledge is too wonderful for me."
His right hand holds me.
He is everywhere.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
He is omnipotent.
I have to shave off things that are distracting me.
My life has to be devoted to Him.
I have to focus on my God-given priorities.
I have to keep the worship lasting throughout the week.
I have to be willing to let go of my pride and fall down before my Father.
He wants to help me, all I have to do is simply ask.
So after hearing this, I asked myself. How serious are my "worries"? With God on my side I have nothing to fear. There are people who are fighting for their lives every single day, there are people who have never even heard of the word of God, there are people who have nothing to eat, there are people who have nowhere to sleep; basically, I AM BLESSED is what I learned tonight.
I am in constant prayer for people who are hurting, constant prayer for people who don't know the Lord, constant prayer for people who do know the Lord. I pray for new people every single day.
I have no reason to worry and I want other people who are hurting to understand this message, too. The God of angel armies is on our side. He has paved every path and created our futures exactly how they were meant to be. God knows every step we will take and every mountain we will climb. All we have to do is surrender to Him.
I am so so thankful that God knew exactly what I needed to hear tonight and my prayer is that if you are reading this then you were blessed just like I was. Give it ALL to God, lay everything down at the foot of the cross and allow Him to have His will in your life.
True love will never shine brighter than the love that our Savior has for us.
If there is any way that I can pray for anyone, PLEASE let me know! Send me a message, give me a phone call, anything. I want to pray because I want to see God do a major work in your life!
To end, I want to ask you to watch this video. When you're having a hard time, turn to this video. Tim Timmons, the song-writer, was at church tonight and he shared his story and a few of his songs. He blew me away. It was an amazing time and I cannot wait to hear him again. It is an awesome testimony and a truly beautiful song.
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